I got dressed in clothes that don't pertain to the pajama family. I made the decision to get up. I sat outside with the sun on my face. I haven't done that in awhile because I was always too tired from hosting that little angel inside of me. Today I got up and I felt the sun. I just looked at the simple things. The blades of grass blowing, the leaves changing, and people moving about their day. When you dry your tear-filled eyes, you begin to see the simple things again. It dawned on me..there is a world that still exists. With or without me laying in bed with the blankets pulled over my head.
There is a world that needs me. A world that needs me to participate and give back. I'm here for a purpose, and I highly doubt it's to take up residency in a bed. Maybe it's to prove to the world that you can knock Kristina down, but she WILL get up. I've been knocked down, wind taken out of my sails and I cant seem to catch my breath...but I NEED to get up. I need to get up.
K - just wanted to let you know I am thinking about you and sending you love. I can't imagine what you are going through but I can relate to that feeling of wondering how the world can go on when you are crushed. When I found out that my dad had cancer, I just couldn't believe the world could keep on going around me. How could all these people go on in the world when such a horrible thing was happening? I wish you peace and love. Sending you prayers. xo Sundai
ReplyDeleteAmen to you. You are stronger than you know. Just lean on or lord when you feel week. And know I am thinking of your always.
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