Mother's Day 2013

It's Mother's Day, and it feels so bitter sweet. I'm mourning for the little guy who gave me the powerful title "Mother", while relishing in the fact that I'm caring for the little girl inside of me. I am a Mother of 2 children, neither which are in my arms.

This is my Gender reveal video..and a dedication to thank Joey for hand picking his sister for us.

Mother's Day

It's my first Mother's Day. Unfortunately, it's without my little boy.
This seems fitting:

Dear Mr. Hallmark,

I am writing to you from heaven,

and though it must appear

A rather strange idea,

I see everything from here.

I just popped in to visit,

your stores to find a card

A card of love for my mother,

as this day for her is hard.

There must be some mistake I thought,

every card you could imagine

Except I could not find a card,

from a child who lives in heaven.

She is still a mother too,

no matter where I reside

I had to leave, she understands,

but oh the tears she’s cried.

I thought that if I wrote you,

that you would come to know

That though I live in heaven now,

I still love my mother so.

She talks with me, and dreams with me;

we still share laughter too,

Memories our way of speaking now,

would you see what you could do?

My mother carries me in her heart,

her tears she hides from sight.

She writes poems to honor me,

sometimes far into the night.

She plants flowers in my garden,

there my living memory dwells

She writes to other grieving parents,

trying to ease their pain as well.

So you see Mr. Hallmark,

though I no longer live on earth

I must find a way,

to remind her of her wondrous worth

She needs to be honored,

and remembered too

Just as the children of earth will do.

Thank you Mr. Hallmark,

I know you’ll do your best

I have done all I can do;

to you I’ll leave the rest.

Find a way to tell her,

how much she means to me

Until I can do it for myself,

when she joins me in eternity.

                                                                 Get it?... "A JOEY"

                                                                  
                                                                   

16 Weeks

16 Weeks is a time frame that resonates such harsh memories. I gave birth and lost Joey at exactly 16 weeks. That was all the time I had with him. That small amount of time, formed an unbreakable attachment.
I knew reaching 16 weeks with this little miracle was going to be a scary milestone. It was never a question of making it past the first 12 weeks. It was a question of, will I make it past 16? I have reached that milestone TODAY. I know I'm already ahead of the game. Little buddy is doing great!