Project Thankful - day 19

Thankful to wake up in my "Happy Place" with not a cloud in the sky. My only agenda for the day is to work on adding color to my already sunburned body. I'm sitting here, typing this thankful message as I sip my coffee from our balcony on such a glorious morning.

Project Thankful - day 16

today, i am thankful for the small reminders that god puts in our paths, to remind us that we dont have it so bad.

A delicious shot to get you through the Holidays

CHOCOLATE COVERED PRETZEL

So damn good, you won't just have 1

1/3 part Pinicale Whip Vodka (Its whipped cream vodka)

2/3 part Franggelico

lick back of hand and add salt

Lick Salt and do shot....

you'll thank me later :-)

Project Thankful - day 12

I am thankful for lending ears. I carry a huge weight everyday. It wears me down. It's all I know. It's consuming. And yet people still let me talk and they listen as though it's the first day. It seems to be the only way to lessen the overwhelming pain. When I release the torture that has consumed my heart, I move on...until the next break down. This is the cycle that I imagine I'll probably be on for the rest of my life. I'm just thankful that I have people who will listen.

Project Thankful - day 11

I haven't blogged for project thankful in several days. Being thankful wasn't an emotion that lived within me for the past week. I mean deep down I'm sure I could sit and think of reasons to be thankful, hell, I'm alive right?! But for the past week I feel as though I've been sleep walking. Experiencing an out of body & mind existence. Wasn't sure if I just did something or even just said something. Honestly..just existing. I realized I haven't been feeling. I'm afraid this non-existence of feelings will become habitual. Will I eventually love again? Don't get me wrong..I love what I've already loved..but will I love something new? Will I experience any feeling other than sadness and hurt?
Anyway- I AM thankful. While my feelings bank is out of whack..I am thankful that each day I wake up alive, gives me another opportunity to work on who I will become.
I am thankful for the 3 people who molded who I was, and hopefully the best of those qualities will prevail.
I am thankful for my Papa..who we jokingly say "who made me the nut I am". He taught me about details. Doing things the right way, the first time. While the negative of this is worry, perfection, and tightly wound..the beauty of this gift is creativity, attention to detail and organization. I am able to fix things, think through, and prepare. All qualities that help you succeed in life and career. I am a leader because of these traits.
I am thankful for my Mommy. For the obvious reason of giving me life, but for giving me her intelligence. I am just like her in "cutting through the layers of life". (Basically...we both can see through bullshit!) She also gave me her memory. Like an elephant, right mama?! One trait about me that drives my Mom a little nuts and doesn't quite understand...is how I make things over the top. She's more simplistic. What she doesn't understand is that I actually got that trait from her. My most fondest of memories of her are when she made events magical for me. I'll never forget my Christmas mornings with her. From Santa making a mess of the cookies I left out for him, or how the presents were displayed, or how she made me believe that SHE believed Santa was at our house. I too, want to make all my moments magical. I look forward to the day where I make my baby's special moments magical, just like you did for me.
And then there's my Grandma. She has taught me love & compassion. My need to take care of - comes from her. My roots of marriage come from her. I am thankful for her giving me the strong personality I have. The "I'm not taking your shit" Irish attitude. You know the bulldog in me?..yea, that's all her. It's a lot to handle for some, but it's what has protected me and gotten me through. The trait that drives her nuts is my mouth..but guess what, that comes from her too! :-) She's taught me to be a strong, assertive woman. I wish more women were like this. The strength she's taught me...is what's gonna get me through this.

I am THANKFUL for those 3 people that have molded me to be a fighter!

Project Thankful - Day 4

Today, I am thankful for ABILITY.
That I'm able to pick up a baby and only feel pure love, despite the hole in my heart.
That I'm able to spend a Sunday afternoon with a friend.
Thankful that some people have the God-given ability of clairvoyance to pass on messages that need to be heard.
That I am able to have a Guardian angel who watches over me & makes herself known when given the chance.
That I am able to make tomorrow, how ever I want it to be.

Project Thankful - Day 3

Today- I am thankful to be employed. While I've always dreamed of being a stay at home wife/mother, to have a job I like going to everyday, is a blessing. If it weren't for the blessing of an understanding company, I would have never been able to make all those doctors appointments.
Without employment, I wouldn't have insurance...which with fertility and everything that has happened the past 2 months..has been a life saver. Without a job...I wouldn't have had the money to BUY A NEW SUV TODAY!

30 days of Thankful - Day 2

 

Today - I am just plain ol' thankful for this guy!

 

My rock, my buddy, my best friend, my everything. We all know I'm not the easiest person to love, yet he does it beautifully, without blinking an eye. I've waited a long time for this guy, and not a day goes by that I don't thank God for blessing me with him. I love you Buddy!

 



30 days of Thankfulness - Day 1

Just because I've been knocked down, doesn't mean I'm still not thankful for all I have been given.
I am thankful that on November 1st, I made it through a surgery with a fresh clean slate. I am able to continue to carry positive thoughts for the future. I am thankful for the wonderful doctor that I have, who knows my struggles and loves me more because of them. And for the husband I have been blessed with, who has been in and out of the hospital with me and always supportive. November 1st marked a new beginning.