Monday, April 22, 2013

Waiting for my Rainbow.. to arrive in October!

Title of this blog says "Waiting for my Rainbow"...and folks, I couldn't be more happier to announce that I AM actually WAITING for my Rainbow. Due to make an appearance early October. My gut tells me September, b/c the irony of that would make it surreal  I lost a baby in September, and my rainbow shines in September.
It's been a tough journey for both Joe and I. Struggling through a loss, trying again immediately, and dealing with the emotions of a new pregnancy. I was filled with guilt that I was replacing Joey so soon, guilt for not being as happy as I should have been when I got a positive pregnancy test, and guilt that I was somehow taking away something magical for this new little person, b/c I was still struggling with such heartache.
I am learning to love this pregnancy more and more each day. I feel life inside of me, not only in my womb, but in my heart. I know this tiny little person was sent here by God and Joey, and they will change my life for the better!